Thanks Jason as I have said to many people on this forum its only people like you who have kept me alive, literally. My life two years ago was full of fun and I was a really sociable, bubbly person. My life was filled with a job I loved and much socializing and many parties. Now I live a very lonley and isolated life, which is very hard to accept. I am lucky in the respect I have my 3 lovely children, but two at 22 and 18 really live their own lives. I also have a one year old grandaughter and it is sad that I havnt been well enough to spend much time with her. Im really glad that my 18 year lod son still lives at home because he is a very sesitive boy and has helped me a lot. He has had major health issues himself as he started having unexplained seizures a year ago. This has already cost him two jobs as they cant deal with it as no medication controls it. I spent half of last year by his bedside while he was in hospital and he had a heart attack. So he comforts me a great deal. In fact I have ordered a heavy metals test for him as he has had health issues from a baby. My children have always been my world and we have had so much fun together before this illness struck. Thats why it hurt so much when my sister did what she did, she wouldnt even talk to me about the situation, took my daughter and refused to let me see her. Obviously eventually a solicitor made her return her. But my daughter is only 12 and it caused her so much trauma. She is fine now and very understanding and very kind to me. But I will never be able to find it in my heart to forgive my sister for what she did. Its really sad because I use to love being around people but now my dream is to get well and move away somewhere near to the sea and surround myself with animals which I adore. I guess I've lost a lot of trust and faith. Sorry to waffle on, but sometimes need to get things off my chest. Anyway on alighter note my guinea pig is ready to give birth any day now and I cant wait. She had 2 babies 7 weeks ago, but her naughty partner impregnated her again the next day without us knowing. He has now been neutered, much to his dismay! I was awake in the middle of the night when she gave birth last time it was awesome. In the last few years I have collected four guinea pigs, four cats, two fish and a homeless dog. Sucker or what! Hugs to you too Tracy