Hi, you have to wonder whether it's either some weird curse or it's something disturbing your biochemistry or something and it may be something you were born with, or to do with the toxicity or something. No wonder you took the ring off, i'd have done the same thing.

You could just never stop asking questions, because it's so incredibly weird.

But if the antidepressant you try does happen to alter anything that helps in this area, maybe that might be a good thing. But it's not fair that you should have to live your life around attempting to alter something just so people respond better to you, when you've made so many efforts and improved your health already.

Anyway, doesn't do any good I guess, whatever it is, you're stuck suffering it for now and I just hope you keep going and don't give up in despair and that somewhere somehow they'll be answers at some point.

As for me? I'm doing badly. I seem to only briefly get some improvements and then they disappear again and it's not something I'm able to hang onto, or figure out why things continue to go wrong.

Seems like some of us are really getting some very difficult stuff to deal with and much of it doesn't seem to make sense or have answers. The way I see life is very dark, and I know it's the toxicity, but it's very difficult to attempt to see it any other way with this inside my head. Only occassionaly does it lift a little and then I'm able to kind of think "oh ok, life actually isn't all that bad...", but the horror is when it returns and that's it, I'm gone.

Thanks for asking though. I've had this for most of my young adult life and I actually have become so accustomed to not living a normal life, I have no idea what it's like. people think I'm weird because I'm not married with kids and I think some of them think I'm gay lol.