hey bex, thanx heaps again for posting, you pretty much hit the nail on the head with that last post. I have seriously become so desperate with this problem that I'm starting to think it is something "twilight zoney" and that mayb I have some curse or negetive energy around me. But then my rational thinking steps in and says "don't be silly". I even took off a ring I have been wearing for a while to see if this would "lift the curse" lol. No seriously tho this is what it is feeling like, something like a curse..

I must admit though at the moment I am very depressed and find it hard mustering motivation to do anything, including getting out of bed. I have started thinking lately that maybe I do need to go on an antidepressant, see if this does anything for me, since all my other alternative treatments at the moment seem to be failing me. Also if I go with conventional medicine I have much more support, as it doesn't cost me anything for the appointments with the docter and the medicine and I also have the support of my family and my sister who is a conventional docter. So mayb it will pay to try this for a bit, and if it doesn't work or the side-effects are too severe or whatever I can put a stop to it, and then my family will know that I tryed it and it didn't work and may develop a better attitude to me trying the alternative treatments

I did take an antidepressant once, remeron, and it helped in some aspects: I slept better, I gained some weight which is actually good for me since I am skinny, and it did help depression and socialness somewhat. Some aspects were bad tho, it made me exausted for a couple of days when starting to take it, I became a bit zombie like, also it gave me really wacky and scarey dreams, some of the most intense I have ever had. Also I think I had some withdrawal but can't really remember; electric shock like feelings which were so very scarey. But the time I was taking this drug was probably the most unhealthy time in my life, and my toxicity levels were through the roof. So I may have a better response now that I'm physcially more healthy. Who knows, but I think I should give it a try.

I'm also still waiting for hair mineral analysis to come back, this may shed some light on my situation. Anyway Bex, I think I talk about myself enough, how are you going anyway lol..