Joey

I have been thinking that there is something about me that in times provoke a reaction from other people. But these last couple of days, thanks to reading your posts about your situation, I've been thinking and observing people, strangers and friends/family. I have noticed that most of them are actually very stressed out, nervous and tired themselves. I blame a lot of my same situation on my ill health caused by metals and candida, but the truth is I would probably still be striving mentally like healthy people if I didn't have the ill health to focus on. Then my life would be filled with lots of activities, job opportunities and........STRESS. I have noticed it takes just a second for many people to become very angry and resentful......including towards strangers if they meet the slightest bit of problem. I have also worked in a customer service kind of job, and the only people who ever were friendly and non-stressed/hostile were the elderly. They had all the time in the world and frequently wanted to chat and were genuinly interested in what I had to say. Others, especially anyone who had children (they seemed the most stressed), would blow up for a minor detail making me speechless each time it happened. I could barely work because of low energy, so close relationships (children, boyfriends, close friends and activities were out of the question. This also meant I was leading a fairly uncomplicated life....apart from my health issue).

I think the worlds demands on people today are making them nervous, stressed, low-confidence and insecure about themselves and everyone around. I feel I AM the one who have every reason for this due to my ill health, but I forget how stressful normal living can be. So now I am really not taking everyones' reaction to heart anymore. It is they themselves who are so stressed that they get nervous/angry/insecure for the slightest thing. At times when my brain-fog is gone I see how miserable people seem and how they often complain. Because the world has been centred around me and my health for so long, I think that the world is doing fine and feel let down when on good days I see clearly this is not the case. Demands have gotten tougher during the last few years, which I haven't been mentally a part of because of my ill health. When I feel good, it is frightening to see how aggressive and cold my surroundings have become. When I have brain-fog, I don't see that people are treating me in the exact same manner and that they are just as stressed out. With brain-fog I haven't even got the ability to take their reactions to heart, because my brain hasn't registrered their reactions.

So what I want to say to you Joey, is that maybe it is the world which is stressed during your bad times and also in your now good times.