hey guys, thanks bex, strength and lucie. Its so refreshing to find people who know what your going through and can give you support. Bex, you really put thought into your posts and I really apreciate that, you geniuinely care about others and I think thats great! You're pretty much right in everything you say, yes this particularly sucks because I am young, mainly because going by facial value is so important at my age. Strength, you are right people here are a lot worse off then me, but right now I am sort of starting to wish I still showed some strong symptoms so that I knew that this problem was related to heavy metals or something else which I could identify. O and lLucie, I already take a lot of magnesium, but thanks anyway.

Just to update, the problem is still there and doesn't seem to be giving way, despite some diet changes, exercise, lifestyle changes, use of natural therapies etc. The craziest thing is that I just can't find the cause of this. I look in the mirror and see a fairly normal looking person. Nothing that warrants this reaction people have to me. Today for example I worked in a customer service situation, which I pretty much do every saturday. Let me tell you, these are the days that hit me the hardest in regards to this problem. Every single customer I get has the same reaction, and i go through hundreds. They are very uncomfortable, don't want to look at me, some get angry at me, a lot of them shake and get really nervous. All the while I'm feeling relaxed, try to be polite and try to be nice, create conversation, but everyone avoids me.. Its just crazy. It makes this job very hard for me, but more importantly makes my life very hard also. And there is no one who can convince me now that this is either in my head or that I'm still really anxious or stressed and people are just reacting to this, or even that people are generally rude, and its them not me, not everyone is rude!

Lately because my concentration and mood have stabilized somewhat, (except for being depressed about this problem), I have had time to reflect and gather everything I can possibly think of relating to this problem. When i look back this has been happening all my life, particularly through teenage years I think. The way people have treated me just seems so inconsistant, not just my family, everyone! There have been rare times when I have been treated like a normal person, and these were probably some of the best times in my life! These times were the most productive times, and things would start turning around in my favour. However they were always short lived, and I'd always end up socially isolated for long periods in between the good times. Also I was thinking about when I took noni juice for a period of time. It was like magic, the problem went away for a period, people were amazingly nice to me, a very new experience for me. But I don't think this lasted very long.. I might give noni another go...

I really hope this is only a physcial symptom of a toxicity or disorder I am still suffering and not something that will be with me for the rest of my life, and that with further nutritional healing, exercise and supplements i will be able to overcome this.