Hi Joey, no problem, glad that you feel you can vent, just like the rest of us can and do. You have to be able to do it somewhere, without someone shoving a presription for antidepressants in your face as soon as you dare mention anything like this.

I think it is sad that your family really isn't being over sympathetic about this at all and basically acting like the rest towards you, until of course you have a more natural facial moment and they respond accordingly. Some people can seriously be about as deep as thimbles. And cannot see further than what they see and sadly, if you have an unfortunate facial expression that is happening without you being able to help it, then of course, being shallow, they won't see beyond that or why it might be happening, or the fact you yourself are 'fine", they'll just look no further. No offense to your family and I would hope they're not like this, but in my experience, there are quite a few one dimentional people around.

This is very awful for you I know. Being young, it just makes it even more painful. The very time in your life you want to be free and break away from the years of suffering, and just when you feel ok on the inside, the other weird thing continues.

It could well be the very last thing your body is interested in healing because the inside comes first. problem is, you can feel well and still have mercury in areas that could well be doing this and you thinking it's "you".

It's advisable to chelate and contine doing so for years, not months. This helps eliminate the other mercury that you are not noticing or feeling. It can be anywhere and I advise you to keep it up and keep doing it safely.

Other than this, I hope you know you can get on here and let us know how this is going for you even if it's continually awful.

And as strength said, the people around today? heck, I've never known such strangeness or coldness from people and I have no idea why or what's going on. This is why I keep myself to myself now. But I do remember, when I did go out a lot more in my late teens/early twneties, I had a way of putting my face that ruined most of my evenings, nightclubbing etc, all because I apparently looked depressed, moody or standoffish and this repelled people. My friends got guys coming up to them all the time, i was like some fart standing there in the middle like either not existing or seriously putting people off without even uttering a word. And I looked no uglier than the next person, so I really felt worse the more I tried to go out, the worse it got. And I remember someone told me I looked that way and I thought "i'm really going to make an effort not to", but it didn't work. I tried, but I probably had the look of some desperately intense person trying to smile. I just had to accept it. I look unwell too, so that doesn't exactly help.

. I do believe this definitely did have something to do with the mercury, as my face alters a lot, expressions and the general way I look which doesn't seem to make sense, but people with this toxicity may know what I'm talking about. I can look different from one day to the next, younger with a different look tomy features, or other times older and haggard and my eyes change also. The whole thing is distressing, but I can't do much about it. Mercury don't forget is changeable and it does definitely reflect on your face and can do some amazing things to a person's looks.

So Joey, in a sense you're not alone, but you maybe experiencing this more intensely than others, but I do have an idea of it believe me. I've heard of this before in mercury, they call it the mask type face, almost a look of no animation, an odd kind of blankness or the other, where you can give off a look of being either overly intense, or basically bored. All of these things can give people around you the totally WRONG impression.

So, it's not much help I know, but you have to keep going and not give up. It's a trial I know, but I'm glad at least ONE area is improving (your internals), but will the externals follow suit? Maybe if/when enough of the mercury is finally gone that area too will even out.

For now? If this is how people are goign to respond? Then you have to keep faith in yourself and if you cannot find understanding or support anywhere, then get on here where you WILL find it. And it is painful when you look to yoru own family and find the same type of judgements, this is all too common believe me. They can be the worst of the lot! Though for me? I am very lucky, both of my parents have ended up being my best friends! but if they hadn't? I hate to think what would have occured with me, I had no other outlet (other than God, but I felt God wasn't listening to me). But I know deep down He was.

anyway, i'm going on and on. Catch you later.