you guys are all right, and I thank you for your responses. Bex, thanks for being honest, I don't really expect any of you to give me answers, I guess I post here more to just vent my frustration, as this problem has made me so isolated and I just have to tell someone. With the severe anxiety and depression I have had over the years I have always been very alone and isolated, but at least then i had the hope that one day I would be better and above all would be able to be relaxed and social with anyone I wanted to. Well now I percieve myself as better in so many ways, mentally and physically, but since I am still not being socially accepted, even by my own family, my hopes are quickly shattering.

The fact is I have told my mum about it. She only gets angry at me and says that I need to get over my health and get on with my life. How can i when my health is what is stopping me from doing so? I also asked her about my appearance and what is was that made me seem angry/anxious. She just denied my observations of people treating me differently and said that i have always been an anxious person, and need to see a phsyc about it.

Typical docter responses are that I'm depressed and need to go on anti-depressants. My own sister who has just become a doctor feels the same way. I don't want to tho as I know that they will not help me in the long run and may actually do me damage. I've not come this far with my health just to resort to anti-depressants either. These heavy-metal problems, candida problems and any others of which conventional docters do not believe in and of which have given me so much mental and physical suffrage, are real and I cannot let any doctor convince me other wise. The plus side of doctor however is that they do not cost much at all, alternative treatments however do cost, a lot! Money of which I do not have, and cannot afford to be spendning large amounts, particularly on treatments that are not helping me. I have had plenty of experience with this, naturopaths that I have seen ultimately just take my money by pushing their products onto me without actually listening to me and caring about my problems. One of these naturopaths I saw may have helped me a bit but most of her expensive products I bought from her did none of the things she said they would, and I have made ten times more progress trying to solve my health problems by myself than I ever did with her.

Strength yea i have stopped drinking, as this only exacerbates all problems, apparently makes this facial tension problem immediately worse also, I don't know how or why.. My problem is not just that I don't attract people either, its that everyone now goes out of their way to avoid me in every aspect, both people I know and total strangers.

Thanks tho guys, I'm going to get these tests done by a new practitioner I am seeing, which include a blood histamine test, hair mineral analysis, pyroluric test and mayb some others. All of which I have not had before.. They are expensive but i think they will be worth it in the long run..