Hi there, thanks for your post. I am sorry to hear about your horrific accident from such an incredibly active life! wow. And now this? Well, I don't know what to say, but it woudl seem you have a great deal of mental agility yourself and strength and the good sense to use it.

I hope you don't think my posts are an attack on what you were trying to convey. What you said was understandable and made a lot of sense of course! But trying to explain the mental impacts of this, is a little beyond me. The negativity and volatile nature of this toxicity, the dark outlook and feeling of doom, is very normal for a mercury person and often typical if the mercury syndrome (though not all experience this). It depends entirely on the areas it's affecting and the specific weakness of the person. many behave in this manner and are very difficult to deal with. I do have a lot of anger, I admit this but really I think it's quite normal to feel that way as I don't think I'd be human if I didn't. I'd probably be a Saint (which I am certainly not). But I am only too well aware of the judgements of others concerning those suffering the mental crippling effects of mercury, which, because it is invisible to others, is so often put down to being self pitying or "unable to look at the bright side". I realise you have not said this, but I do tend to lash out fast over it. Even if I'm out of line at times.

I really am just like anbyody else and want to live. I have spent years (as I mentioned) trying to hunt down teh solution and continue actively to do so. I am not on my rear end, moping and doing nothing. Amalgams were replaced nine years ago at age 24.. I spent years of extreme symptoms following this, salvaiting uncontrollably, screaming fits and many other symptoms. I was in bed most of the time from being so ill. By age 29 - 30, I began to finally see a light at the end of the tunnel and all the garbage of the previous years seemed as nothing compared to the improvemetns I was starting to experience. It felt like a light had been switched on and I was stunned at the change. Well, by age 31, I developed a bacteria infection, which impacted my immune system. From then on, I battled that and was very ill. I never recovered from this. But other things occured also that have added to this and caused me to become almost permanently ill. I eat healthy, I strive all the time for answers and have travelled for hours to see health professionals, paid out a lot of money for testing etc etc. Have found some possible factors, but no dentist is willing to take my case on, as I'm very ill and it is very complex for them. I am still attempting to locate a dentist, yet entering a dental office is so lethal to me, as the mercury vapor already in there is enough to cause me to become severely poisoned, moreso than ever. So I am tryign now to find a dentist that might help me with this too. I have jawbone infections, gum disease and other things I would like to rectify if someone would simply do the job.

So on here, I think it is very good that people can get on a forum like this and have support and understanding by those suffering it themselves, even if some have it affecting them differently. I may not be able to relate to someone having some other symptoms with this, but everybody is different.

It is hard to believe, but I am actually a positive person, always used to laugh and make jokes, active, sociable, but this has been a dreadful impact. This is why I stand up for others gong through the same, as I am well aware of what it can do, parituclarly in the mind. I no longer have any judgements of others with sicknesses, and those that are not visible, but I used to. It's amazing how firsthand experience can really put a rocket up someone's rear end as it did mine.

Thanks so much for sharing your own story. It is a very good thing you have the spirituality that you do. And I'm no professional, but if you want any advice or comments in this regard to amalgams, mercury, etc, please feel free to ask. I've experienced a great deal in 20 years, made some dreadful errors, but to be able to pass on things, and help others avoid similar mistakes, actually gives me a sense that I am doing "something".

Take care and may you experience the proper care you deserve and getting through this! I sure hope so.

forgive the lengthy post.

Rebecca.