ok so I experimented tonight. Socially today I was doing well, got along with my family well, they wanted to be around me etc. In the afternoon I went for a jog, which produced a lot of sweat, and also had a hot epsom salt bath to sweat out some toxins (both of which I think are helping). Anyway these seemed to help and people continued to be happy around me. So i decided to go the a party but not drink and see how I went.

So i turn up, feeling good, not very anxious, depressed or anything. Before turning up also I chek the mirror and I look calm, face not very tense or anything, eyes look calm and so on. This is a good sign, and when I Rock up to the party people say hello, people talk to me look at me and take interest in me. So generally I'm having a good time. So then I decide to have a beer since I'm feeling good, and see what happens. Bang, pretty much straight away after people don;t want anything to do with me, dont look at me and I become isolated once again. Although the way in which this change is fairly subtle to start off with, I definately notice it! Argh, so soon after I see no point in staying so I say good bye to a couple of fairly uninterested people and leave.

Chek myself in the mirror after and notice some subtle changes in complexion, acne maybe a bit more flared up, skin a bit more oilier, but nothing too noticable. More importantly tho I notice that my face is a bit tense and my eyes look wider somehow, like I'm staring instead of looking, and they do look like they have some fright in them. A physcial symptom that I could actually feel which I noticed was that when I had the beer, my face seemed like it was colder, particularly my nose, cheeks and eyes, and this is usually accompanied by cold extremeties which I get a lot, which does signal poor circulation.

It was important to realise tho that I did not feel any different, and was my usual self, and that it was solely other peoples reactions to me. So my new theories are that the root cause is facial muscle tension possibly caused by poor circulation in my face or something to do with facial nerves? Also the fact that the alcohol basically created this makes me think that I still have leaky gut or candida issues, which is weird cause I didn't get bloated or anything from the beer, mayb a bit of gas thats it. Also I'm thinking liver congestion or toxicity could also be causing this, even tho I'm feeling good at the moment I could and fairly sure I do have a congested liver still. Going to do a liver flush this week and see how I go, it'd be great if this "cured" my problem. Apart from this I am almost certain there is something going on with my facial muscles, making me look tense or something. Could poor circulation be causing this ? I read on another forum that someone with anxiety had botox injections and its made their social life extremely easier. Id love to find the root cause of this but mayb I may need to fork out for some botox, so that I may look more calm...