Hi Aaron, you echoed my own situation almost perfectly. I have the same worries and pain.

faith in God is pushed to the brink and sometimes basically over it. How does one keep going? WEll, I don't know, I just keep living for some reason.

I'm turning 34 this year and I hate every minute of it in all honestly. It's awful because you feel stuck in a situation that you can't control or seem to change. I have tried for many years now and I really am not healing and have no clue as to why. I feel frantic and often bewildered by it all. Sound familiar? I just hope you have better luck with getting over this amalgam illness. I think for me it's complicated by other matters that is interferring or hindering my immune system.

Hope you feel a little less isolated in this. But I know, it doesn't make things better. I certainly do have the same feeling of futility! Hard to keep going.

But at any rate -

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REGARDLESS OF THE SITUATIONAL sh*t <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

and definitely take the chelation slower and easier, too easy to push yourself further than you can handle).