Hi All,

A close friend of mine has very recently been institutionalised for severe Bi-polar disorder. Has battled with it for a long time. She refuses to believe it may be her amalgams of which she only has two.

The reason Im scared is because we share a whole lot of the symptoms and one of mine is getting worse as did hers before she went to hopital (Been there 3 weeks now). The symptom Im talking about and im embarressed to say is .... not quite sure how to categorise it but Id say its a kind of paranoia. Like EVERYONE is conspiring against me or has an alterioir motive. Even the people I love dearly that would never do such a thing. Im so ashamed of thinking like this and its tearing me up inside. Now im starting to think maybe im getting Bi-polar and that this is just the start and im going to end up like her one day. Its really bad. For example I'll be in a different room and hear my Housemate and her boyfriend whispering and immediately im convinced they're conspiring(spelling) about me. Someone will offer me a hand and I start to analize why they're doing me a favour and what do they want out of it. ALL THE TIME. I get so worked up about it. Has anybody had and recovered from this. Am i going crazy??

Another WEIRD one is that a word will pop into my brain at the most innapropriate time. I dont say it aloud it just pops in my head. For instance I'll see a fire and "EVIL" Someone will be telling a story and "EVIL" The cat will look my way and "EVIL" Im so shy to post this post but I just cant take it anymore, ive felt like i was losing my mind before but this bi-polar thing has scared the heck out of me.

Anybody help?